Salt and Pepper

White black brothers

This post is really special to me.  I have been wanting to do this for many, many years!  I have a very good friend out there in the world that I haven’t seen in a very long time, since 8th grade in fact, and I want to let him know that I never stopped thinking about him and I pray for him to this day.

Many of you know that when I was a kid my family moved from Littleton, Colorado to St. Charles, IL (which is about 35 miles west of Chicago).  That is when we moved into the haunted house.  I’m not going into that here this time, but if you want to read about that it is in my book “One Man’s Very Strange Supernatural Life” on Amazon.  Believe me, you want to know about what I talk about in my book.  Strange and supernatural indeed!

The move was extremely hard on me.  I left all my friends and everything I knew and I became deeply depressed.  I was the new kid at a new school and I hated every second of it.

Some kids at the school were nice to me, but some were not.  The first week of school I had a dentist appointment, so I arrived at school late one morning.  I gave the office the note from my Mom and they gave me a hall pass to get to class.  The halls were empty as classes were in session.

As I walked up the stairs to my classroom, another student came around the corner just before I got to the top.  I said hi to him, and with no warning at all, he just attacked me!  He grabbed me by my throat with both of his hands and started choking me as he pushed his thumbs into my larynx!  I was in complete shock!   I wasn’t that kind of kid at all.  I wasn’t a fighter.  I was a calm peaceful kid and I grew up having a lot of friends in Colorado.

The kid who was choking me was bigger and taller than me and he had me good.  I could not loosen his grip and I did not know much self defense training at the time (I do now though, I use a mix of street and Israeli Krav Maga,very effective).  I was only 13, I hadn’t hit my 6’1″ height yet, and I was a skinny kid.

I remember feeling light headed as he choked me.  I remember the anger on his face and in his eyes as he pushed  into my throat.  I had never even met him before, and it was only my first week at my new school!

I was looking at him as my breath left me, and right as I was feeling lightheaded and about to pass out (or die) I saw a big black fist smack right into my attackers face from his left!  Immediately the kid released his grip and I took a huge deep breath of air!

What I witnessed after that is the most brutal and beautiful rescue I have ever seen, and I was the one being rescued!  My attacker fell to the ground as my hero continued to beat my attacker with his fists and feet until he was a bloody pulp laying at the top of the stairs.  As my hero beat my attacker’s face with his fist, he stopped for a moment, turned to look at me and said, “You want some of this?!” as he invited me to join in the beat down.

I was still trying to catch my breath and I was bent over with my hands on my knees.  I couldn’t speak, so I just waved at him and shook my head no.  He saw how hurt I was, and that made him beat my attacker even worse.  Blood was everywhere, I was in total shock, welcome to your new school Ryan!  It was the most violent and chaotic event of my life up to that point.

After my hero was done beating him, he stood up and kicked my attacker in the head for one last good measure, then he yelled at him, “Don’t you ever mess with him again, he’s my boy!”  After that, my attacker got up with a face and shirt full of blood and ran down the stairs!  Not one teacher came out into the hall to see what was going on!  I never saw the guy who choked me again.  I don’t know if he quit school or was kicked out or what, but I never saw him again.  Praise God!

After he ran away, my hero came over to me, put his arm around me, asked me if I was okay, and then he said, “Don’t worry about him.  You’re my boy and you can hang out with me!”  I will never ever forget that, ever!  That big black fist landing on my attacker’s face was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen.  It was like slow motion as his fist made contact with the side of his face, and all at once I could breathe again.

My hero’s name is Damien, and brother, if you are out there and you happen to read this someday I just want you to know I love you brother!  THANK YOU FOR SAVING ME!  You are a hero to me and I will always remember you that way!  You didn’t know me at all, but you rescued me and called me your friend!  You introduced me to your homies and I felt loved and welcomed!  You are the man bro!  Seriously, you are the man!  You were a strong man back then when we were just kids, and I would love to see you now!  I bet you are a cop or firefighter or something!  You are a hero and I love you, that is all I know brother!  I bet you have kids too, and I know our kids would love playing together!  Our wives would like each other too!  My prayers and heart are still with you brother!

Damien and I were best friends after that, and I didn’t have any more trouble with anybody.  Before we moved into the haunted house, we lived in a small apartment for about a month.  That ended up being really cool because I found out Damien lived in the apartment complex across the street, so we hung out at school and home.

We were together all the time.  We loved listening to rap and hip hop together.  That is back when Cube, Dre, and Snoop were young and poppin’ back in the early 90s!  Man that music was off the chain back then!  Damien and I were always vibin’ to that!

We hung out together so much that the other kids in school started calling us “Salt and Pepper.”  Damien was taller than me with a tall high top fade for a hair style (Like Kid from Kid n’ Play).  I was the skinny white kid with blonde hair and blue eyes.  Guess who was Salt?  It’s okay to laugh.  Damien and I thought racism was about the stupidest thing on earth!  We rolled together tight like two peas in a pod.  We were homies, best friends, and I knew he had my back!  You don’t want to catch a beat down from my hero!

I hate racism.  With all my heart I hate it!  That big black fist was the most beautiful thing I had seen since we moved!  I was heartbroken and lost from the move.  I was lonely and hurting.  Do you think I cared at all what his skin color was when he was saving me?  Nope!  That was the most beautiful skin I had ever seen!  He was like a big beautiful black angel of power and love!  Man, my attacker received the rod of the Lord through Damien!  Straight up 100% street style beat down!  Man there was a lot of blood!

I hope I can find Damien someday.  I just want to give him a big hug and then chill and talk for hours and hours while listening to some sweet beats bumpin’!  We are still best friends, forever brother!

I lost touch with Damien because his family had to move back to the south side of Chicago before we started High School.  The last time I talked with him, he said the schools had metal detectors and it was very violent every day.  I hope you made it through brother!  I know you were tough enough to survive it, that’s for sure!  The south side is no joke folks!

If you know a guy named Damien from Chicago, and you think this story might have been about him, please contact me!  I pray I find him!

God bless you all, and remember those divisions of the flesh are caused by the evil one.  We are all made in God’s image, and no matter where you live in this world or what color you are, you are my brother or sister!  Squash all that racism nonsense!  Squash it for good!  There is none of that in Heaven!

I love you Damien!  You will always be my brother!

Peace!

“My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.  Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.”

Jesus speaking in John 15:12-13

 

 

 

 

The Love Debt

Romans 13 v 8

Okay, this is a big one!  This lesson from the Bible is so important that if you do what it says to do, you will fulfill the entire point of the Bible!  Do I have your attention?

Check this out:

“Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law.  The commandments, “Do not commit adultery,” “Do not murder,” “Do not steal,” “Do not covet,” and whatever other commandment there may be, are summed up in this one rule: “Love your neighbor as yourself.”  Love does no harm to its neighbor.  Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.”

Romans 13:8-10

Nobody likes debt and it always feels great to pay it off!  Loving each other is a debt we are to never pay off.  You can love your neighbor as yourself in the power of the Holy Spirit and that debt is never a burden in His power!  Read my piece titled “Real Love” to find out what love really is through God’s eyes.

Those verses above also come with a warning.  Picking up in verse 11:

“And do this, understanding the present time.  The hour has come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed.  The night is nearly over; the day is almost here.  So let us put aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light.  Let us behave decently, as in the daytime, not in orgies and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and debauchery, not in dissension and jealousy.  Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the sinful nature.”

Romans 13:11-14

That’s it folks!  If you want to live a righteous life that pleases God, then repent, turn from darkness and sin, clothe yourself with Jesus, and love people like He did!  You will fulfill the whole point of the Bible, which is love!  It is the greatest love letter ever written!

Bless you all in the eternal love of Jesus Christ!

P.S.

See my post titled “The Roman’s Road” to receive Jesus as your Lord and Savior!

Beauty from ashes

 

Regret

2 Corinthians 5 verse 17 flowers

Regret is a heavy word isn’t it?  It is a horrible reality on this earth that we all have to deal with, and we all have plenty of regrets.  Bad choices we made.  Sins we committed.  People we hurt.  It all goes wrong sometimes doesn’t it?

I am here to tell you there is hope!  You do not need to carry those regrets any longer!  When you come to Jesus and lay down your life to Him, He will forgive and cleanse every sin and regret you have!  Anyone who is in Christ is a new creation!  The old has gone, the new has come!

That newness comes the moment you receive Jesus, and for the entire time you follow Jesus.  You are a new creation forever!  Even after you receive Jesus, you will make mistakes, and you might regret those mistakes, but Jesus keeps making all things new in your life as you walk with Him.

I want to tell you about one of my most painful regrets that I have had in my walk with Christ.  If you have been reading my blog, then you know I am straight up about confessing things.  I am not self righteous.  I am Jesus righteous!  So, here we go.

Before I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease on 1-6-12, I had been slowly getting worse over the previous 10 years leading up to that.  I was 33 when I was diagnosed.  At the beginning of my 20s, I started having issues with my gut and food.  I didn’t know what was wrong, and doctors didn’t know either.  My bones and muscles were aching and I was losing my appetite.  I was losing weight rapidly, and my spine burned.  By the time I was diagnosed the disease had almost killed me taking me from 160 to 128 pounds!  It was a nightmare!

One of the worst parts of Celiac is what it does to the human brain.  I cannot digest the protein gliadin found in wheat, barley, and rye.  Oats are also incredibly dangerous for Celiacs because it digests into a very similar protein as gliadin.  Oats caused me to go into anaphylactic shock on 4-28-12 for the first time in my life!  It is that protein gliadin that they nickname “gluten.”

Celiac Disease is a genetic auto immune disorder and a chronic illness.  If I eat wheat, my body will go into a full blown auto immune attack on itself.  This attack causes damage to the small intestine killing the crucial villi in the lining that is necessary for nutrient absorption.  The protein gliadin will also break through the cellular wall of the lining of the stomach and “fly around” wildly inside my body.  One of the worst attacks from this wild protein are on a Celiac’s brain.

As it enters the brain, it causes the hormones responsible for fight or flight to stay at peak intensity even when at rest!  To me it felt like a hive of wasps stinging me right behind my forehead.  I would push on my forehead to try and relieve the pressure and intensity, but it just wouldn’t stop.  I didn’t know what was wrong with me!

This auto immune attack on my body and brain were horrific.  When I watched the Will Smith movie called “Concussion” about the football injury called CTE, it made me cry.  It did that to me because what happens to those guy’s brains looks a lot like what happens to misdiagnosed or undiagnosed Celiacs who are still eating wheat.  It can drive us completely mad!  The scene where the poor guy is banging on his forehead is exactly what I did!

Like I said, it was like a hive of wasps stinging my brain!  The increase and intensity in the fight or flight hormones made me feel abnormally agitated and angry at all times of the day.  I had trouble sleeping and focusing, and it kept getting worse.  At the time of my diagnosis in 2012, I thought I was losing it!  I wasn’t, it was just Celiac making me go nuts.

It took a long time for my brain and body to heal.  For at least the first three years of the disease I yelled at my wife and kids a lot, and they suffered because of it.  I know I would not have been like that if the disease hadn’t attacked my brain like it did, but I still have deep regrets about that time in my life.  I hurt their hearts and I scared them.  It was awful.

I also hurt friends, and my Mom and Dad.  I yelled at them on the phone when my brain was on fire in rage.  I hurt feelings and ruined relationships, and I was supposed to be mister preacher man.

Why am I telling you all this?  Because I want you to know God healed all of that and wiped it away!  He showed me how to eat right as a Celiac and he began to heal my body and brain, and everything got better!  It is even better than before, and our family is strong because of what we have been through.  My wife and kids love me with all their hearts and I love them with all of my heart!

I was shown mercy and grace from friends and family, and my wife and kids, and forgiveness is mine.  I just want to say right here in this post to all of you who I hurt during my time of suffering, please forgive me!  I love you all!  I literally wasn’t right in the head because of Celiac.  I still take responsibility, and that is why I ask for forgiveness.  Please know I love you all, and I never wanted to hurt anyone!  Please keep praying for my complete healing from this disease!  Please forgive me.

I am okay now.  My brain has not been on fire for a long time, and God brought peace and healing to my body.  He cleansed me of all the gliadin protein that was causing the auto immune attack, and He once again made me new!  Our family has a lot of fun together and we are doing just fine now!  I love you guys!

I am a new creation in Christ every day!  He is the Living Water and the Amen, and He flows within me!  Those dark regrets have no hold over me any longer because I am free and clean in His forgiveness!

What regrets do you struggle with today?  What keeps you up at night?  You don’t have to carry those burdens any longer!  Jesus will take those burdens for you, throw them away, and make you brand new!

Come to Jesus today!  He loves you!

Grace and peace to you!

2 Corinthians 12 verse 9

 

 

 

Who is God?

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God is the Creator and Ruler of the universe. He exists as three in one: the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. These three are equal together as One.  In Exodus chapter three, Moses encounters God in a burning bush.  He asks God what His Name is, and God tells Moses His Name is I AM.

“Moses said to God, “Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, ‘The God of your fathers has sent me to you,’ and they ask me, ‘What is his name?”  Then what shall I tell them?

God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.  This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I AM has sent me to you.'”

Exodus 3:13-14

God continues his answer to Moses in verse 15:

“God also said to Moses, “Say to the Israelites, ‘The LORD, the God of your fathers–the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob–has sent me to you.’  This is my name forever, the name by which I am to be remembered from generation to generation.”

Exodus 3:15

It is very clear that is His Name and that is the Name He wants to be remembered by forever.  It is also clear from the Word of God that God created the entire universe and everything in it.

“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.  Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.”

Genesis 1:1-2

God also created human beings and he created us in His own image!  Isn’t that cool?!  You look like your Creator!  We all do, no matter where you live or what color you are, you are made in God’s own image!

“Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.  So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.”

Genesis 1:26-27

The “us” God is talking about is Jesus and the Holy Spirit.  All three were present at the beginning of creation.

John 1:1-4

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.  He was with God in the beginning.  Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made.  In him was life, and that life was the light of men.”

God, that is I AM, loves us!  He loves us so much that He died for us!

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

John 3:16

God wants all of us to have eternal life!

“The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness.  He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”

2 Peter 3:9

God is love, and He loves you!

“If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God.  And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.  God is love.  Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.

1 John 4:15-16

The way God loves us is found in 1 Corinthians 13.  This section of Scripture defines once and for all exactly what love really is!

“Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails.”

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

In verse 13 of that chapter, Paul writes,

“And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love.  But the greatest of these is love.”

Since we learn from 1 John that God is love, then God’s character is also filled with the above attributes of love.  God is patient, God is kind.  He does not envy, He does not boast, He is not proud.  He is not rude, He is not self-seeking, He is not easily angered, He keeps no record of wrongs.  God does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  God always protects, God always trusts, God always hopes, God always perseveres, and God never fails!  The greatest is God!  The Great I AM!

Isn’t that great news today?!  There is a God who created you in His image because He loves you!  I am very glad that God has the character He does!  I am so thankful for His love and forgiveness!  When you repent and believe in Jesus, God removes your sins from you!  He will NOT keep a record of your wrongs!

“For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.  As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him; for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust.”

Psalm 103:11-14

It is important to note that the “fear of the Lord” is not being scared of God.  His love is perfect and drives out fear.

“There is no fear in love.  But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.  The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”

1 John 4:18

God is love, so since there is no fear in love, then there is no fear in God.  The “fear of the Lord” means to have great respect and reverence for the Lord.  Once you are made perfect in His love by receiving Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, there is no more fear.  The fear of death is gone, and you revere (or fear) the Lord in the power of the Holy Spirit!

“Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might destroy him who holds the power of death–that is, the devil–and free those who all their lives were held in slavery by their fear of death.”

Hebrews 2:14-15

Remember all of this today and every day!  Yes, there is a God and He absolutely loves you!  He provided One Way for you to get back to Him, and that Way is Jesus Christ.

“That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”

Romans 10:9

I pray you receive His love today!

Grace and Peace to you all!

Psalm 90 verse 2

 

 

Lessons From Taekwondo

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That is my son smiling at me.

My son absolutely loves Taekwondo.  He has been doing it for a couple years.  He is a purple belt now and he will be testing for his green belt soon.  Taekwondo is the ancient Korean art of combat.  It is very popular in our town.  Tae means to kick with the foot, Kwon means to punch with the fist, and Do means way.  So, it is literally the kick punch way.

I took this picture earlier today.  This is what they call forms class where they practice their punches and kicks, and they train by doing moves on each other and the instructors.

This is where the instructor lets the kids kick without holding back:

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My son bringing the heat to his instructor!

Yes, I am very proud of him, can you tell?

Here is my boy taking one of his buddies down.  They take turns practicing the move, and afterwards it is always cool to see them pat each other on the back.  Just another day at Taekwondo!

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That’s the way to do it son!

I’m showing you this because I love my son.  I am proud of his hard work.  He stayed dedicated and now he is in a program where he can make black belt in two years with hard work and discipline.

It has been great to see him grow as a person through the training and discipline.  He has found a great outlet for his energy and he is learning the valuable skill of self defense at the same time.

My son is focused on the prize and that prize is his black belt.  He will study and learn and train several days per week over the next two years and when he is 10, he will reach his goal.

I am focused on a prize too, but I have waited a lot longer than two years to obtain it, and I will continue to wait until my time is through on this earth.  The prize I’m talking about is Heaven.

My son envisions himself with that black belt on leading the class someday.  He imagines what it will be like, and he doesn’t lose sight of it.  In the same way, let us focus on Jesus and the glory of Heaven!  Imagine what it will be like and picture yourself there!  Press on and take heart!

Whatever you are doing in life, don’t lose sight of the goal!  If you do not know Jesus yet, come to Him today, He loves you and He is waiting for you!

God bless you all!

“I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”

Philippians 3:14

Beautiful shot of Long's Peak

 

 

 

Brothers

Proverbs 17 verse 17

I love that verse!  My 1984 NIV Bible says it this way:

“A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.”

Proverbs 17:17

The book of Proverbs was written by Solomon who was the son of David.  It is a divinely inspired God-breathed book of wisdom on how to live a righteous life.  God gave Solomon this wisdom, and God empowered him to write it.

This is the beginning description in the first chapter:

“The Proverbs of Solomon son of David, king of Israel:

for attaining wisdom and discipline;

for understanding words of insight;

for acquiring a disciplined and prudent life,

doing what is right and just and fair;

for giving prudence to the simple,

knowledge and discretion to the young.”

Proverbs 1:1-4

You can see how important it is to read the Book of Proverbs.  I want to live a life like that, so I read it a lot.  Just one of the many wise pieces of advice in the book is the one above about friends and brothers.  I didn’t grow up with brothers.  I have a younger sister, so I was the protective older brother.  Yep, don’t mess with my sister, you got it!

When I received Jesus is when I found my brothers, that is, my spiritual brothers in Christ.  I had a bunch of them in college, I have a bunch at church, and I have brothers all over the world that I am meeting for the first time through this blog!  One of those brothers lives across the pond from me in the U.K.

He is a strong believer in Jesus and has a mind that can tackle philosophical issues with great intelligence.  His writing is superb and his knowledge base in the Bible is strong and sound.  We met through my blog, and through email we agreed to read each other’s work.  Today I read a 27 page piece he did on a very deep theological question regarding free will and God, and he downloaded my book through my free book promo going on right now on Amazon.

Side note: If you have not had a chance to get your free copy of my eBook, you still have a chance!  The free promotion will end on Monday 8-20-18 at 11:59 p.m. PT.  Get your free copy of “One Man’s Very Strange Supernatural life” today!

Okay, back to brothers.  This gentleman, who was once unknown to me my entire 40 years on this earth, is now my brother.  We were always brothers in Christ.  We just never had the chance to meet before.  I’ve only known him for a few days and we have emailed a few times back and forth, but he is my brother nonetheless.  He is my brother through Jesus and we have the same Holy Spirit inside of us.

My brother is wrestling with some deep theological questions right now that many Christians would probably not even dare to ask.  I commend him for asking such tough questions.  I myself have asked God hard questions (see my post “Wrestling God“).  He has conflicts and questions regarding the Omnipresence of God, the essence of the Trinity, and free will.  Yes, heavy stuff.  Like I said, he is one smart dude!

He and I agree on the core doctrine of our faith, which is that Jesus Christ is the only way to salvation.  We just do not agree on the answers to the specific questions he is asking, but he is my brother, so I want to listen and give a perspective that hopefully helps him in someway.  If anything, talking with someone who cares is at least encouraging even if we don’t agree.  That is what brothers do.  When your brother needs help, the Bible is clear, the wisest thing to do is be there for him.  Whether you agree on theological issues or not.

I have many of the same questions and those questions, although different, do not make us any better than the other.  We both love Jesus.  We both have strong knowledge of the Bible built on years of hard study and dedication.  We both are filled with the Holy Spirit because of Jesus, and we are both just as saved as the other.

I am saying this because it was awesome how he and I could talk about deep issues that we disagreed on, and we treated each other with the utmost respect and dignity while doing it.  Brother, if you are reading this, you are a true Christian gentleman in every sense of the word.  I look forward to reading more of your work!

You know what else is cool?!  He has had some of the same supernatural experiences that I have had!  I loved that!  It makes me feel less lonely in the crazy things I have lived through.  He didn’t think I was crazy or weird.  He knows its true because he has experienced God in much the same way!  So awesome!  Isn’t it great when you find somebody who understands?  It really is!

If you are a Christian or somebody who has had encounters with the spiritual realm, I would love to talk with you!  I know what it is like to carry those kind of memories!  You are not alone!

Be there for your brothers and sisters today, and I’m not just talking siblings.  My brother and I both lived out Proverbs 17:17 today, and it was great!  Thanks for getting my book brother, enjoy!  Your essay was written in the humility and love of our Lord Jesus, bless you!

Be respectful to each other, be loving to each other (the 1 Corinthians 13 kind of love),  help each other, and learn from each other.  Above all, like Proverbs says, love at all times and be there for each other!

Grace and Peace to you all!

P.S.

Be sure to grab your free copy of my book!  If you have any questions or would like to talk with me about it, please don’t hesitate to contact me!

“Do not rebuke an older man harshly, but exhort him as if he were your father.  Treat younger men as brothers, older women as mothers, and younger women as sisters, with absolute purity.”

1 Timothy 5:1-2

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The Callahan Fam at Daniel’s Park, Castle Rock, Colorado

 

 

 

 

Teaching Moments

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That’s our house and that’s my son. He has his remote controlled motorcycle guy. He loves doing R/C cars with me!

This post is more relaxed today.  I’ve been hanging out with my wife and kids all day.  It is a beautiful August day here in Colorado around 68 degrees and sunny.  It’s a great day to chill with the family on a Saturday, and that is exactly what we’ve been doing, chillin’ in the Lord!  See my post “Just Chillin’” from this morning.

My son was getting cabin fever, so he wanted to go out to do remote controlled cars.  His favorite is his motorcycle guy.  It is hilarious to watch that thing go!  It balances very well and can take sharp corners with ease.  He loves it!  He lets me drive his fast replica Dodge Charger car, and we race.  It’s awesome, and I always feel like a big kid out there with him.  My daughter loves getting into the mix too.  She has a monster truck and a little Lamborghini car she loves.

We were in the garage and my son noticed that the reflector on his bike was broken.  My son has an engineering mind.  He loves to build things and tear them apart to see how they work.  He said, “Hey Dad, my reflector is broken.”

Now at this point, I could have just fixed it for him real quick and been done with it, but there is a better way.  I grabbed the phillips head from the top shelf, and said, “here you go son, rightie tightie lefty loosie,” handing it to him.  I gave him my “you can do it” nod of approval and told him he was great at fixing things (because he really is).  He smiled at me with the smile he gives when he feels respected, and he completed the task with joy.  He loves my tools and he is good at using them.

I love my kids, and I want to give them the best training I can possibly give them in all areas of their life.  The most important training I could ever give my son and daughter is training in righteousness, and that is only found in the Bible.  I have trained them how to use rifles, I have taught them how to fix things, I have taught them to fish the trout filled rivers of Colorado and stay alert in lion territory, and I have taught them street smarts and many other things.  The most important thing I teach my kids about is faith in Jesus.  The number one lesson I want them to learn is to follow Him and trust Him throughout their lives, and that is not easy.

We need to be in the Word and stay connected to Scripture, so we have that vital Holy wisdom flowing through us every day.  We need God’s Word to wash over our minds and hearts every day and teach us how to live righteously.  It’s not just about that Sunday sermon.  Every day I need to be studying the Bible and letting God work in me, so that I will be ready to teach my kids at a moment’s notice as life happens…and it goes so quickly!

“All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in all righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.”

2 Timothy 3:16-17

If you want to teach your kids how to fix things, teach them how to use your tools.  If you want them to be righteous, teach them the Bible.  The Holy Scriptures will never lead them astray!

Blessings in abundance to you all!

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This is a cool study page in my Bible explaining how Jesus fulfilled the Old Testament and bridged the gap of separation between us and God! Training in righteousness!

 

 

 

One Man’s Very Strange Supernatural Life Free Book Promo 8-16-18 to 8-20-18!

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Hello Everyone!  I just created a free book promotion for my book on Amazon.  It will start tomorrow (or tonight really) 8-16-18 at Midnight Pacific Time.  It ends at 11:59 p.m. PT 8-20-18.  Amazon only lets you do 5 days for a free book promo.  I would have done more!

I just want everyone to have a chance to read my testimony for free!  During those 5 days you can go to Amazon and download my eBook for free.  I encourage you to do that, and please tell your friends and family too!  You don’t need a Kindle device to read the eBook.  Amazon has the awesome and free Kindle App, which turns your device into a Kindle reader.  I have it on my PC and my Android phone.  It’s cool!  The books look great on there too with great readability.  Very easy app to use too.

If you’ve ever wanted to know if the spiritual realm is real, then you should read my book!  You will learn about angels, demons, the Holy Spirit, and that miracles still happen today because Jesus is alive!!!  Yes, God exists, and He loves us!

I pray my story is a blessing to you and it helps you understand just how much God loves you!  Set the dates and be sure to grab your free copy before time runs out!

I would love to hear what readers think of my book.  Please contact me if you have any questions or comments about it!

Bless you all!

“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God–not by works, so that no one can boast.”

Ephesians 2:8

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A Man of Sorrows

Psalm 19

In Isaiah 53:5 the prophet Isaiah prophesies about the coming Messiah:

“He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.”

I want to focus on this one verse for a moment.  Think about Jesus.  Think about what the ancient Romans did to Him when they beat Him with lashed whips with sharp stones embedded in the leather.  It wasn’t just a whip.  It would grab a hold of the flesh and tear with every strike!  Think about how they sunk a crown of thorns into his head.  Those were not little thorns either.  They were huge 3 to 4 inch spikes!  Think about how they drove thick metal spikes through His hands and feet to hang Him on a cross, which was a death reserved for criminals.  Jesus was despised and rejected by men.  The account of His death is even recorded in ancient Roman documents, and He died like that for us.  For you, for me, for everyone!

He was also a man of sorrows and familiar with suffering.  That seems strange, doesn’t it?  Why would the Son of God be sad and suffering?  Wouldn’t He have the joy and power of God inside and be happy all the time?  Not quite, let me explain.

Jesus felt sorrow because of what He saw on the earth.  The sin, the hurt, the disease, the hatred, and the rebellion against God.  He had sorrow because He cares for us deeply.

Sometimes the things in this world are extremely depressing and they cause deep sorrow.  We have watched for years here in America as one mass shooting after another has happened in some of the most vulnerable and unthinkable places.  We see people in other countries suffering not even having access to clean water.  We see homeless on our streets.  The sorrowful list goes on.

Those types of things should bring sorrow because through that we can impact change!  I live in America, born and raised.  It is not lost on me that not everyone in the world gets to enjoy the things I do here.  It bothers me that some people are born into situations that seem impossible to overcome while others are born into freedom and peace.  Why was I born smack in the middle of the U.S.A. and not in the middle of the Congo?  My soul could have just as easily been given to another family.

All I know is that God has a plan for each one of us, we are all made in His image, and He wants us to help each other!  All the suffering I see makes me feel the same sorrow because I have the same Holy Spirit inside of me that Jesus does.

What are we supposed to do with that sorrow though?  Just sit around feeling depressed doing nothing about it?  No, not at all!  We get up, form ministries, and start serving the Lord and doing the exact same things He did while He was on earth.  We serve, we give our time, we give our money, we pray, and we reach out to a hurting world!

Godly sorrow leads to great positive change and justice!  It also leads to repentance.

“Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow leads to death.  See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done.  At every point you have proved yourselves to be innocent in this matter.”

2 Corinthians 7:10-11

Jesus didn’t walk this earth oblivious to the pain around Him.  No, He embraced it.  He was a man familiar with suffering.  Not just His Own, but ours too.  He took our suffering into Himself and He experienced it fully.  He also took all of our sins upon Himself and experienced death and hell for us, so we don’t have to!

“When he had received the drink, Jesus said, “It is finished.”  With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.”

John 19:30

Just like Jesus, I will not just sit around.  I will not ignore the plight of those that are suffering.  We are commanded by God to love people.  That is the entire point of the Bible.  God is love.  He wants us to love!

“And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.  God is love.  Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.”

1 John 4:16

“This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us.  And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.  If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?  Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.”

1 John 3:16-18

This is not about guilt trips.  This is about love.  If you feel that sorrow and you want to do something about it, cruise over to my Great Ministries page, and take a look at how Jesus is moving in power through His followers still today!  They are all financially accountable ministries my wife and I support.

Christian sorrow should not be taboo at all like it is in many churches.  Do we have joy in the Holy Spirit?  Of course we do!  That will always be there flowing inside of us like a mighty river.  We also feel the Lord’s sorrow at times, so use it for His glory and help people like He did.

God bless you all!

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Jesus speaking in Matthew 11:28-30

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Wrestling God

Team Jesus Knight

I want to confess more things to everyone.  I am not ever going to be a phony!  You have found a preacher who knows how sinful he is and how much he needs Jesus.  Like TobyMac said back when he was with D.C. Talk, “Everyday I realize I’m still a man in need of a Savior.”  Man-O-man is that so true!

If you have been following my blog, then you know that I have Celiac Disease.  I have already covered much of that.  What I want to tell you is how angry I was during many of the years of my suffering since 2012.  I also want to explain how I arrived where I am today much healthier and stronger with a published book on Amazon, and a blog where I write about God with joy again.

It was three years into the disease, and I was still hurting real bad.  I thought after the first year, “surely this will end soon.”  I was wrong.  My bones, muscles, and spine burned and ached from being so thin.  I would vomit at random times (3 a.m. was always fun), I would have massive blood sugar drops, and don’t even get me started about how many times I had to go #2.  That went on a lot in years 3 and 4 of the suffering.  I was eating gluten free and I also had cut out dairy, soy, and eggs, but my body was detoxing itself and I was still excreting dead intestinal tissue at times.

I was praying and crying out to God for healing, but it just wasn’t happening.  Many nights I would be laying on the floor shivering and shaking in a cold sweat after vomiting and having diarrhea at the same time (yes, I would be on the pot with a trash can in front of me at 2 or 3 a.m., and I did that many times for many years).  I thought I was going to live like that for the rest of my life!

I became disillusioned with God, myself, and life itself.  I became so angry that I wanted to wrestle God!  That’s right.  I wanted to go man to God and I didn’t care if He killed me!  I wanted to beat my chest and yell up at the sky, and that is exactly what I  did at times.  What I didn’t know and still can’t seem to wrap my mind around is how lovingly He dealt with me during that time.

At times, after watching all the mass shootings and all the crazy turmoil around the world, my suffering would spill over and I would say things like, “YOU DON’T CARE GOD!  Sitting up there on your throne looking down on us, just sitting there watching us suffer!  You don’t care!”

Another one which was filled with mockery as I pumped my fist and pointed towards the sky was, “You sure must like your throne because you just sit there doing nothing!”  I know, it is awful, but I am being open with you about my fight with God.

At times the pain and anguish were so bad that I would call out for God to kill me.  “Just kill me Lord please,” was a common prayer in years 3 and 4.  I couldn’t take it anymore and I just wanted to go home and be with Jesus.  I would tell Him, “Am I your child or not?!  I have served you for over 20 years, where are you now?!”

I thought God was done with me, and He was setting me aside.  What He was really doing was comforting me, building me up, and healing me in His perfect timing.  God is so very faithful to us!

One set of questions in particular really drove me nuts, and I had many conversations with God about it.  I would ask Him with anger, “Why did you create any of us at all?  What is the point of it all?  Were you lonely?  Why did you make it the way you made it?”

This whole struggle played out from about 2014 to 2017.  When I was diagnosed on 1-6-2012 I weighed 128 pounds.  I am 6 foot 1 inch tall, so I looked like skinny walking death.  It was horrific.  We thought for sure I had cancer.  I had gone to doctors for gut pain for 10 years leading up to my diagnosis.  None of them ever mentioned Celiac Disease or asked about gluten.

It wasn’t until I met a wonderful Nutritionist Doctor from Denver that I was correctly diagnosed.  I love you Dr. Darby, thank you!  She told me I was starving to death because of a damaged small intestine.  She advised me to immediately go gluten free, and my new life as a Celiac began.

I was 33 years old with two young kids and a wife to support and I got taken out hard!  I couldn’t work.  We had to close one of our businesses.  It completely changed our lives!

What made me more angry than anything was when we found out our kids also have Celiac Disease.  Around the same time I was diagnosed my daughter started showing signs of it.  She was only 4 or 5 at the time.  She was having awful stools, gut pain, and her hair started falling out.  We immediately went gluten free, and she was immediately better.  Our son is two years younger than his sister, so we caught it early enough in him that he didn’t suffer at all.  I thank God we caught the disease before it damaged their small intestines.

Celiac is a genetic auto immune disorder, so I passed it to my kids.  I was very angry about that.  I would tell God, “Use somebody else Lord, please, leave me alone.”  I would yell up at him about all the crazy supernatural things I have lived through, and ask Him why I had to go through all that.

I thought for sure God would smite me.  Even though I know He is loving and good and forgiving, I still thought in the back of my mind that He would surely strike me down after all I had said to Him.  Surely I had pushed Him too far.

Not at all.  You know what God did instead?  He wrestled with me, disciplined me, and cared for me in love.  He let me vent and pour out my heart to Him.  He let me struggle and twist and turn and try to remove myself from His loving bear hug.  He let me pump my fist, beat my chest, and yell up at Heaven…and He didn’t strike me down.

He loved me instead!  He answered me and told me He created me and all of us and all of this because He wants us to experience being loved and loving others for all eternity with Him in Heaven!  He showed me how much He cared from the outpouring of love and support I received from family and friends.  My children would write me notes saying they loved me and telling me to not give up.  He lifted me up and showed me a better way to eat and live, so I could heal quicker.  He cleansed my body of toxins and now I eat better than I ever have (100% Organic, 100% NON-GMO, and 100% Gluten Free baby!)  He told me to write my testimony and publish it, so I did and He empowered me to get it done.  He told me to start a blog and minister to people telling them everything that He has done for me, and here I am doing just that!

He also showed me that the sin and evil we see in this world is not because of Him.  He is on His throne and He is in control.  He also gave us free will, and we are living in a fallen world, and satan is very real.  The Bible is clear that the world will be in a state of utter chaos in the end, and we most definitely need a Savior.  The Lord already provided us a way out, and that way is Jesus.  He cared so much that He left Heaven and His throne to die for us!

“And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death–even death on a cross!”

Philippians 2:8

Above all God showed me that I am His, and nothing can ever, ever, ever snatch me out of His hand.  I glorify God, honor God, love God, and respect God because He is worthy of that glory, honor, love, and respect.  I came through my time of need with a deeper understanding and appreciation of who God is and how He loves, and I am going to keep telling people about Him until my very last breath on this earth.  I no longer pray, “Use somebody else Lord.”  I pray in Holy Spirit power, “Here I am Lord, use me!”

In all of my anger, I never stopped believing, I always called on Jesus, and I always asked for the Lord to fill me with the Holy Spirit.  The Lord even continued to use me to share the Gospel during that time!  Jesus has all authority here in my house and over my life, and He always will!

Believe me, those memories I have of the angels in 1998, and how Jesus was with me when I stopped breathing in 2012 have given me great strength through my time of suffering!  I love you Lord!  Thank you for saving me and forgiving me so many times!

He will forgive you too.  Give him your whole heart today.  Are you angry at God?  Good!  That’s a start because you already believe that He exists enough to be mad at Him!  Open up your heart, be honest, and wrestle Him if you have to.  I promise you will end up wrapped in His love forever!

Bless you all!

“Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess.  For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are–yet was without sin.  Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”

Hebrews 4:14-16

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That’s me getting baptized over 20 years ago!  The guy in shorts to my left is my long time and great friend Willie.  He got baptized first.  It was awesome getting baptized together!
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Baptized into the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit! It was fall and I was freezing!