The War

2 corinthians 12 verse 9

Hello friends and family, our family made it through Influenza A!  All I can say is praise God!  Thank you so much for praying for us!  I cannot stress just how terrible that virus is!  Now I know why it kills people.  We are very thankful to be over it!  I want to tell you about the spiritual attack I was under during this illness.  This was one of the worst battles of my life and I fell into seriously deadly despair.

When I say deadly despair I mean suicidal despair.  The kind that grips your mind and soul and squeezes you to death with hopelessness.  My Christmas and New Year was a nightmare and coming into 2019 there is one thing that I want to stress to you all.  This war is real.  This is not a game.  There are real casualties, real pain, and real loss.  We have an enemy that wants us dead because we serve The King.  He hates us.  He hates me and he hates this blog where I preach the truth of Jesus Christ.  It makes him angry and he tries to kill me.

I have been a soldier in this war for a very long time now.  I am battle hardened and I am not going to stop.  I want you to know what I and my family suffered though during this time of illness because I was under relentless attack.  The illness was bad enough, but it was the enemy’s attacks on my mind that struck a mighty blow to my spirit and my hope.

Feelings of anger against God welled up again.  The physical suffering I was enduring reminded me of when I was first diagnosed and I became deeply angry at having to suffer it again.  I listened to lies that God didn’t care about me anymore and the despair was unbearable.  The enemy truly enjoys attacking us.  You must understand this.  If you are a Christian and especially when you are serving God in the war, you will be attacked at some point.  We are soldiers.  Soldiers fight wars.  Our commander is God Almighty and the King of kings and Lord of lords Jesus Christ!  The war is ancient and has been fought by many brave believers before us.  We must continue the fight!

God is dealing with me gently and I love Him and thank Him for that.  I am not going to repeat the conversation I had with God over this last 9 days of illness.  I was very angry and in deep despair over Celiac and coming up on 7 years of suffering on 1-6-19.  I was very angry that Celiac made the flu an extremely painful ordeal.  He knows my heart and He heard all of your prayers.  Your prayers lifted my soul and defeated the enemy’s attacks.  My family is healed and we are moving forward in His grace.

My discipleship mentor used to always tell me, “Ryan, life is a battleground, not a playground.”  At 40 years old after following Jesus for 22 years, I understand that better now more than I ever have.  This war is real friends.  Just remember, Jesus Christ already won that war when He died on that cross and rose again three days later!  Glory to Jesus forever!  I serve Him and I’m not going to quit now!  I am His soldier!  May His will be done!

Grace and peace and strength and power be yours in the Name of Jesus Christ!

“But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ.  What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things.  I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ.”

Philippians 3:7-8

Taking A Break

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Hello friends and family.  I am going to be taking a break from blogging for awhile.  My health is not well and I need time to rest.  I am turning off comments for now, but I can still be contacted through my blog “Contact” page.  I started this blog on 8-10-18 and since then I have written 257 blog posts plus this one.  If you have questions about faith in Jesus, I encourage you to take a look at some of the posts.  Check out the “My Beliefs” page too.  I appreciate you all praying for me and my family.

God bless you all

Asking For Prayer…Yet Again

Pic quote Rev 21 v 4

Hello everyone.  Thank you for your prayers for my family.  My wife and kids are just about over this flu that hit our home hard.  Guess what?  Now I’m sick!  I popped a 102 fever Christmas night and I got sick 5 times throughout the night and Wednesday morning.  I am feeling a little better today, but I am still around 100 degrees.  I am focusing on the day when their will be no more pain.  I am ready for the old order of things to pass away!  How about you?  I’m sorry I haven’t had the chance to read your blogs.  I have a lot of reading to do!  I will get caught up when I am feeling better.  At least I have enough strength to type this today, so that’s good.  Yesterday all I could eat was a few bites of banana and rice, and I couldn’t stop shivering.  I can’t take Ibuprofen or Tylenol because of Celiac, so I take White Willow for inflammation and Olive Leaf and Echinacea to boost my immune system.  I hope I can eat today.  Thank you all for your prayers!

Grace and peace to you all!

O Come All Ye Faithful

Merry Christmas everyone!!!  I hope and pray you are all having a wonderful Christmas Day!  We had a lot of fun with the kids this morning.  My Mom sent me this video today and it was such a blessing that I want to share it with you as well.  Jesus is the gift of Christmas!  Come, let us adore Him!

God bless you all in the precious Name of Jesus!

“The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us.  We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.”

John 1:14

 

Christmas Eve 2018

Christmas Eve 2018

I wanted to thank you all for praying for my family!  My wife and kids are feeling better and we are excited for tomorrow, praise God!  The presents are wrapped and put under the tree (with a bit of an overflow that couldn’t fit) and the kids will be in bed in a few hours to dream of Christmas morning.  Each one of those gifts represents the love of Jesus and we give those gifts in honor of the precious gift Jesus is to us all.  I’m so glad to have you all in my life this Christmas Eve 2018.  It has been really cool getting to know all of you from around the world!  I am looking forward to the awesome things God will do in 2019!

Grace and peace to you all!

I pray you all have a wonderful and very Merry Christmas!

“She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins.”

Matthew 1:21

 

Prayer Update & New Prayer Request 12-24-18

manger scene Thomas Kinkade
Thomas Kinkade

I wanted to thank you all for praying for my Grandpa.  He is back home from the hospital able to enjoy Christmas with family!  He will be 92 the day after Christmas!  Praise God he is okay!  I also wanted to ask for prayer for my family.  My wife and kids are really sick and they need prayer.  It’s a real bummer to have this happening on Christmas Eve, but we are making the best of it.  My wife and son have been fighting it for a few days, then this morning our daughter woke up with a high fever.  My wife has been to the ER for bad pneumonia the last couple years, so I am praying she does not get that again.  I pray the kids don’t get it either.  Everyone is staying encouraged with our eyes on Jesus, but please pray for healing.  Thank you!

Have a wonderful Christmas Eve and Christmas Day!

Grace and peace to you all and Merry Christmas!

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

Jesus in John 3:16

 

Glory To God In The Highest!

Pic quote Luke 2 v 14

Well, tomorrow night is Christmas Eve!  We are wrapping presents and listening to Christmas music.  Our kids are so excited and my heart is truly filled with joy getting to spend time with my wife and kids.  I am really looking forward to seeing their faces on Christmas morning!  My Mom is also coming to visit a couple days after Christmas–we are all excited to see you Mom!  It is going to be a lot of fun!  I made this Scripture pin today because I am just taking in the miracle of Christmas with a heart full of gratitude towards God.  After all these years following Jesus, I still stand in awe of Him!  Merry Christmas!

“Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,

“Glory to God in the

highest,

and on earth peace to men

on whom his favor

rests.”

Luke 2:13-14

“For to us a child is born,

to us a son is given,

and the government will

be on his shoulders.

And he will be called

Wonderful Counselor,

Mighty God,

Everlasting Father,

Prince of Peace.”

Isaiah 9:6

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.  For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.”

Jesus speaking in John 3:16-17

What a precious and miraculous gift from God!

Thank You Jesus!  Glory to God in the highest!!!

Grace and peace to you all!

The Time Joseph & Mary Lost Jesus

Pic quote Luke 2 v 49

Our daughter turned eleven years old this year, so this section of Scripture really hits home with me in a new way at this time in my life.  We also have an eight year old son.  A lost child is a parent’s worst fear.  To be in a crowded place and lose sight of your child for even a moment or to even think for a moment that they are lost is a sickening feeling.  It happened to us this summer at Disneyland when my son ran off and I lost sight of him in a thick crowd for just a few seconds.  I called his name so loud that people turned to look and my son came running out of the crowd to me.  When Jesus was only twelve years old Joseph and Mary lost him for not just a few seconds, but for several days in Jerusalem!  He wasn’t really lost because Jesus was already fulfilling His mission from God, but His parents did not understand that yet.  Where they finally found Him shows us that Jesus was no ordinary child and it reveals His power, wisdom, and authority.

I cannot imagine losing our kids in a crowded city.  They are smart and capable and I have no doubt that they would get help, but we all know how wicked this world is and it can be deadly to children who are alone.  If a child goes missing for several days, it does not usually end up well.  This is the reality of the fallen world we live in.

Joseph and Mary must have been worried sick, but when Jesus went missing, nothing bad happened to Him.  He was kept perfectly safe and He managed just fine on His own.  Of course His parents were an anxious mess like any parent would be frantically looking for their lost child, but Jesus was never in any danger.  So, where did Jesus go and what was He doing?  The answer to that is in the Book of Luke.

“Every year his parents went to Jerusalem for the Feast of the Passover.  When he was twelve years old, they went up to the Feast, according to the custom.  After the Feast was over, while his parents were returning home, the boy Jesus stayed behind in Jerusalem, but they were unaware of it.  Thinking he was in their company, they traveled on for a day.  Then they began looking for him among their relatives and friends.”

Luke 2:41-44

If you are parent, at this point you might be thinking, “how do you leave to go on a trip and forget your kid, then travel for an entire day without ever seeing Him?!”  It looks terribly irresponsible, but keep in mind God was at work.  There was a purpose for what Jesus was doing and it was going to end up recorded for all time.  It seems as though God did something to allow Joseph and Mary to travel on without Him in peace.  I am not going to try and guess what God did, but whatever happened they traveled on for a day without their Son.

Jerusalem in our time is about 91 miles away from Nazareth by car.  It would not have been an easy journey by foot.  In my research I found that it would have taken them anywhere from two to five days to walk home.  I don’t know how far they could travel in one day, but they must have been many miles away by the time they figured out Jesus was not with them.

Jerusalem map

“When they did not find him, they went back to Jerusalem to look for him.  After three days they found him in the temple courts, sitting among the teachers, listening to them and asking them questions.  Everyone who heard him was amazed at his understanding and his answers.”

Luke 2:45-47

Many people know about Jesus in the temple as a young boy, but not much attention is paid to the fact He was away from His parents and missing for four days.  He wasn’t with them for a whole day of travel, then they had to come back and didn’t find Him until three days after that!  When I read about this, my mind is filled with questions.  What was He doing for those four days?  That’s a good amount of time.  A lot can happen in one day, let alone four!  Where did He sleep for three nights?  What did He eat and who fed Him?  We know God took care of Him and He was safe.  How blessed the people were who must have cared for Him during that time!  I wonder who the people were that made Him meals?  Did He stay at the temple that whole time and even sleep there, or was He staying with a righteous family who helped Him?

We don’t know, but whatever happened over those days and nights Joseph and Mary found Him safe amazing the teachers of the Law with His understanding of Scripture and His answers.  He was amazing them because Jesus is the Word!  He is the Word that became flesh and dwelt among us!  Everything was made through Him and He is full of grace and truth!  He is the life and the light and He was shining on them!

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.  He was with God in the beginning.

Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made.  In him was life, and that life was the light of men.  The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.”

John 1:1-5

“The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us.  We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.”

John 1:14

That is why Jesus was amazing them!  They could not imagine how well He knew the Scriptures!  Jesus is the Living Word of God!  Jesus was with God in the beginning when He created everything through Him!  Hallelujah!

His parents react like most parents would react and they question Him, but the answer He gives is unlike any answer any human child has ever given.

“When his parents saw him, they were astonished.  His mother said to him, “Son, why have you treated us like this?  Your father and I have been anxiously searching for you.”

“Why were you searching for me?” he asked.  “Didn’t you know I had to be in my Father’s house?”  But they did not understand what he was saying to them.”

Luke 2:48-50

His parents must have been so relieved to find Him and I would have said a similar thing.  “Why did you do this?!” and “What were you thinking?!” would be what I would most likely ask my kids.  I would also be filled with joy at finding them and wrap them in a big hug.  His parents could not answer His amazing questions.  They did not understand that He is God in human flesh and that He came to die for our sins and He was in the midst of that mission even then.  They didn’t understand the power and wisdom their young Son had.  In that moment He was confirming that He was God’s Son, the One and Only who was before time.  He was in His Father’s house and He was at peace and protected.  Even though His parents did not understand, Jesus honored His father and mother and went back home with them to Nazareth.

“Then he went down to Nazareth with them and was obedient to them.  But his mother treasured all these things in her heart.  And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men.”

Luke 2:51-52

Just imagine what Joseph and Mary told their family and friends when they got back home!  That was quite a family memory!  It was not yet His time at the young age of twelve, but He would come back to Jerusalem to fulfill His mission at the age of thirty-three where He would say “It is finished” while upon that cross!  Thank You Jesus for loving us so much that you died for us!  Thank You for forgiving us!  You are the reason we celebrate at Christmas and every day of the year!

Grace and peace to you all!  Have a blessed and very Merry Christmas!

True Repentance

Pic quote Luke 18 v 13

In Luke chapter 18 Jesus tells a parable about the Pharisee and the Tax Collector.  He does this, so that we will not look down on each other in self-righteousness.  He also wants us to know what a true heart of repentance looks like.  To repent means to turn away from sin and turn towards God.  Imagine a person going one way, then doing a 180 degree turn to go the exact opposite way in which they were going.  Repentance in the Greek (the language of the New Testament) is translated metánoia, which literally means to “change your mind” or a “change in the inner man.”  That is what Jesus wants us to do regarding sin.  Turn away from sin and death and turn to Him and live!  He preached that all people need to repent for the Kingdom of Heaven is near (Matthew 4:17).  Turn to Jesus today and receive His forgiveness and love!  He loves you more than you could ever imagine and He will shower you with grace and mercy!  No sin is too big for the Lord.  He will wash away your sins and remember them no more!

With that in mind, here is the parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector.

“To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable:

“Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector.  The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men–robbers, evildoers, adulterers–or even like this tax collector.  I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’

“But the tax collector stood at a distance.  He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’

“I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God.  For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”

Luke 18:9-14

That is a heart of true repentance that stands before God in humility ready to receive the amazing grace of the Lord!

“for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.”

Romans 3:23-24

“For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Romans 6:23

“For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.”

Hebrews 8:12

God extends that gift to every person in the whole world!  Now at Christmastime is a beautiful time to receive His free gift of salvation!  He longs to shower you with forgiveness and make you a new creation!  All you have to do is receive it by faith.  God is handing you this precious gift this very moment.  I hope you receive it with joy!

“Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.”

Romans 8:1-2

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!”

2 Corinthians 5:17

“Come now, let us reason

together,”

says the Lord.

“Though your sins are like

scarlet,

they shall be as white as

snow;

though they are red as

crimson,

they shall be like wool.”

Isaiah 1:18

We receive Jesus Christ by faith and we are saved by grace.  No matter who you are and no matter what sins and burdens you are carrying, lay it down to Jesus and He will lift you up!  Let Him wash away all of your sins and make you a new creation filled with the power of the Holy Spirit!  It all starts with having the true heart of repentance Jesus told us about.  Turn to Jesus today and receive Him by faith.  He will never leave you nor forsake you and He will receive you as His own!

“Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God–children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.”

John 1:12-13

“That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”

Romans 10:9

“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God–not by works, so that no one can boast.”

Ephesians 2:8-9

“And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation.  Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession–to the praise of his glory.”

Ephesians 1:13-14

There is no boasting in Heaven folks.  We are not saved by works.  We are not righteous in ourselves and we never will be.  We all need forgiveness and not one can look down on another.  We are only made righteous in the sight of God through faith in Jesus Christ!

“David says the same thing when he speaks of the blessedness of the man to whom God credits righteousness apart from works:

“Blessed are they

whose transgressions are

forgiven,

whose sins are covered.

Blessed is the man

whose sin the Lord will

never count against

him.”

Romans 4:6-8

Come to Jesus!  He is the wonder and miracle of Christmas!  He will forgive you and never count your sin against you, and that is the most incredible gift ever given to us!

Grace and peace to you all in the precious Name of Jesus!