Hello friends and family. I hope this post finds you well. I am writing this today because I am in pain and it is wearing me down. I have been fighting Celiac and Cachexia for almost eight years now. The new pain I have been suffering due to intestinal damage has been bad the past few months and it started about a year ago. It was very painful over the weekend and it has been very painful today and I have had enough. It is just more suffering on top of suffering and I am crying out to God for healing. I have asked you all to pray for me many times because it says in the Word to pray for each other that we may be healed. The doctors have told me they can’t do anything for me. My trust and hope is in God alone. He is the only One who can help me. There is no cure for what I suffer. The only cure is a miracle.
I am only 41 and most days I feel so broken that I don’t know how I am going to make it the rest of my life. I am trusting in the Lord because I know He can do anything and nothing is impossible for Him! He has done miracles in my life before and I know He can do it again!
I am going to be taking a break for awhile. I don’t know for how long. I will be taking a break from reading blogs and writing posts. If you don’t see me on your blog, I’m not ignoring you, I just need to deal with this pain and be in prayer. I just need rest.
I need to spend quiet time with the Lord. I am trying to understand what has happened to my life and I am asking God to heal me. I want to hear His voice clearly and I need to know where to go from here. I will continue to draw near to Him and seek Him first and I am giving Him my pain and brokenness. I have done what He asked me to do with publishing my testimony and writing this blog for Him. May His will be done with it all.
My life is in His hands. Whether I live or die is in His hands. Whether I am healed or the thorn remains is in His hands. All I know is a man can only take so much pain and humiliation and everyone has their breaking point. I have cried out to God and I have plenty of faith that He can heal me. I have seen Him move in power and do wonders! He can do anything at anytime! May His will be done with my pain and my life! May His will be done in everything!
Thank you for your prayers! I hope to be back soon!
Always remember that Jesus is love and He loves you! I know He still loves me and He is with me even now as I write this through the pain. I give it all to Jesus, may His will be done!
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
Jesus speaking in John 3:16
Grace and peace to you all!
October is my salvation month! I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior in October of 1996 at the age of 18 my freshman year in college. It has been 23 years now that I have walked with the Lord. I look forward to writing more about that in October. See you then!