Hello friends and family! I am still here and this disease is not going to beat me! I feel like I have been in a back alley brawl for the last month. I haven’t even written a blog post since September 30th! I celebrated my one year blogging anniversary on August 10th and everything was going great, then I got hit again and I kept getting hit, but God is faithful to fight for me every time. Thank you so much for praying for me! Your prayers and your messages of encouragement lifted me up! Jesus has been giving me the strength I need to carry on and He is helping me get back up after getting knocked down hard. I never took my hand from the plow. I’ve just been resting on the plow and I never left the field.
Thank you to all of you on Twitter who have been praying for our family as well! During my break from blogging due to suffering, our daughter got sick again. She ended up having strep twice in October and she has it again right now. She is actually home with me again today. I sent out a prayer request yesterday for her on Twitter and I thought maybe a couple people would see it. God had other plans and He blessed it huge and it went viral! So far almost 500 believers have liked it, 83 have retweeted it, and the prayers just keep coming in! It is so amazing how much God loves us! I had been feeling so dismayed and discouraged and the Lord showed me His love and faithfulness yet again. I am so humbled and encouraged by all of your prayers! She is actually feeling great today with no fever and no sore throat, praise God!
A big part of my prayer request tweet going viral was because my friend Lizzie retweeted it on her Twitter and she has almost 17,000 people on her account. She is the brave woman who spoke out about the problems in California and she ended up on Fox News. I wrote about that back in August. Thank you so much Lizzie for retweeting the prayer request for our daughter! I have never had an outpouring of support like that on Twitter before!
I want to let you all know that Lizzie just started a blog here on WordPress too! Please check out her blog and welcome her to the fellowship! Lizzie loves Jesus with all her heart and she preaches the truth unashamed with boldness and grace. You can find her at: The Concrete Rosebud (concreterosebud.com).
So, you can imagine, October was a tough month for us. I tried to get back to blogging several times, but I was going through so much pain and nausea that I just had to rest. Winter came early here in Colorado too and we had quite a bit of snow. On top of that, I was taking care of our daughter through two bouts of strep (and now a third time). I felt so hopeless when she got it a third time a couple days ago right at the start of the very next month. Thankfully we caught it early and she has a different antibiotic this time that is working great. Please continue to pray for her. Celiac disease lowers her immune system and it is nuts that she has had strep three times in less than two months. Thank you all for your prayers of healing for our family!
I was really beat down and discouraged by all the suffering in October. I also dealt with some anger and I had some more strong conversations with God. I wasn’t even sure if I was coming back to blogging at one point. I didn’t want to discourage anyone and I was feeling very angry and broken about my pain and the pain our daughter was going through. When I am hurting I tend to go totally reclusive like an old bear in a cave, but God always climbs in there and pulls me out in His loving grace. I praise Him and thank Him that He is so gracious and merciful to us.
Through the pain, God put it on my heart to read Psalms. That is pretty much all I read during this last month away from blogging. The Lord led me to Psalm 57 and Psalm 77 shortly after I wrote the post “Giving Him My Brokenness.” It was very encouraging and the Lord let me know that He was right there with me in the pain. We must always stay in God’s Word no matter what we are going through. There is so much light and power and joy in God’s Word! Praise God for the wisdom and understanding He gives us in the Holy Spirit! The Lord is so comforting and loving to us! Don’t ever give up seeking the Lord no matter how bad the pain!
“I cried out to God for help;
I cried out to God to hear me.
When I was in distress, I sought the
at night I stretched out untiring
and my soul refused to be comforted.
I remembered you, O God, and I
I mused, and my spirit grew faint.
You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak.
I thought about the former days,
the years of long ago;
I remembered my songs in the night.
My heart mused and my spirit
“Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?
Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
Has his promise failed for all time?
Has God forgotten to be merciful?
Has he in anger withheld his
Then I thought, “To this I will appeal:
the years of the right hand of the
I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
yes, I will remember your miracles of
I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds.
Your ways, O God, are holy.
What god is so great as our God?
You are the God who performs miracles;
you display your power among the
“Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy
for in you my soul takes refuge.
I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings
until the disaster has passed.
I cry out to God Most High,
to God, who fulfills his purpose for
He sends from heaven and saves me,
rebuking those who hotly pursue me;
God sends his love and his
Those verses spoke to my heart in a deeply profound way. There have been times during my suffering that I have felt rejected. There have been times where the pain put me in a state of mind where I wondered if God was with me at all. Many times I have been too troubled to speak. Many times I have been so discouraged I refused to be comforted. Many times I have cried out to God. Through it all the Lord has never left me! He has always shown me that He still loves me and He is with me! His love, promises, mercy, and compassion never fail!
I remember the miracles He has done in my life and the amazing ways He has revealed His power to me and I rejoice! I take refuge in Jesus and He is merciful to me. I know He will fulfill His purpose for me, amen! I celebrated 23 years walking with Jesus in October and I look forward to being with Him many more years and into eternity! He has never abandoned me and He never will!
The pain I was in has subsided for now and I pray it doesn’t come back. As many of you know, I have been fighting Celiac for almost eight years now and sometimes it really knocks me down hard. Just remember, this disease might knock me down, but it is not going to keep me down! In the power of the Holy Spirit I can take a hit and just keep going! God most definitely always sends His love and faithfulness!
I really missed having fellowship with you all while I was gone. I missed reading everyone’s blogs too and I look forward to talking with you all again! Thank you for all the encouraging comments, tweets, and emails you sent while I was in my bear cave of suffering! I appreciate all of you who reached out to me and prayed for our family!
I give it all to Jesus and I will continue in the purpose He has for me to preach the Gospel (John 3:16, Romans 10:9, Ephesians 2:8-9) and share His Word with the world! May His perfect will be done! Here I am Lord, send me!
Grace and peace to you all in the Beautiful and Powerful Name of Jesus!
“My heart is steadfast, O God,
my heart is steadfast;
I will sing and make music.
Awake, my soul!
Awake, harp and lyre!
I will awaken the dawn.
I will praise you, O Lord, among the
I will sing of you among the peoples.
For great is your love, reaching to the
your faithfulness reaches to the skies.
Be exalted, O God, above the heavens;
let your glory be over all the earth.”