I woke up in pain again this morning. Yet another day starting out as a battle. Yet another day crying out to God to heal me and take the pain. If you are suffering a long term chronic illness (in my case a genetic autoimmune disorder called Celiac Disease), then you know how it feels physically and emotionally. You know how it wears us down. You know the frustration and anguish from praying for healing only to receive more pain. We have suffered for so long we wonder when it will end. We feel cast aside and forgotten and it can feel like God doesn’t care.
A million questions swirl in our minds as we wonder how much more pain we will live through and what will become of us. Will I make it? Is God angry at me? Is He punishing me? We can become angry and begin to wonder if He sees the pain. We wonder if He sees us at all. I know what these feelings and thoughts are like all too well and I want to encourage all of you who are suffering to never lose hope! God most definitely cares! He loves us and cares about us more than we could ever imagine!
I was up early this morning, so I came downstairs as the sun was coming up. I pushed the blinds away from the french doors off the deck and the image above is what I saw. It was like everything was frozen in time and it was beautiful. I heard the Lord whisper, “I love you,” in my spirit as He comforted me through the pain and reminded me He was with me. He has seen the battle and He knows I’m tired. He feels my anger and disappointment. He hears my questions and cries for help. He knows us, He sees us, and He cares!
If you are suffering today, all is not lost! I know we have had so much taken from us. Time and experiences we will never get back. So many years living in pain. Dreams that were never fulfilled. There is still hope and God has not abandoned us! He most definitely sees us and all we are going through and He still has good plans for us!
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
God comforted my heart this morning with a sunrise. A heart that has been beaten and battered by disease and pain and has struggled through bouts of hopelessness and depression. A heart clinging to God crying out for mercy. It is not easy being human, is it? I don’t have all the answers, but I know that Jesus Christ is alive and He lives in me by the power of the Holy Spirit and I am relying on His power to get me through this.
I might not understand God’s process or timing, but I know He cares because He always comforts me. He never leaves me, even when I’m angry. Even when I’ve had enough. He is the God of all comfort!
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.”
2 Corinthians 1:3-5
I am sharing His comfort with you now. I am in pain as I write this, but He is holding me and nothing can snatch me out of His hands. His comfort fills my heart and overflows to all of you! If you are suffering today, take heart! You are not forgotten! You are not alone! God loves you very much and He cares about you! When you believe in Jesus you belong to Jesus and He will never leave us! Keep going, rest in Him, and don’t give up! Give Him the pain. When it feels like God doesn’t care, remember the truth that He always cares for you!
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”
1 Peter 5:6-7
Grace and peace to you all…and Happy Thanksgiving!