I have been having a rough time this morning. Last night was very discouraging. I have always been open and honest on my blog and I want to show my wife that I am not some phony trying to act like I have it altogether all the time. I have never acted like that and I have always been real about who I am, what I’ve been through, and what I struggle with. I am a sinner saved by grace and I desperately need Jesus!
The preaching the Lord writes through me here is by the power of the Holy Spirit. I’m just freely dispensing a gift that He freely gave me, that’s all. Sometimes I have arguments with my wife and sometimes I get angry and sometimes I get angry and complain about the diseases I suffer and sometimes I get angry with God and say things I shouldn’t and it discourages my family. I’m not always encouraging and sometimes I have very bad days too. Every day I need Jesus and I cling to Him with everything I am! Today, my heart is broken over my mistakes and I am truly sorry for being discouraging to my family at times. I am an imperfect man and I need God’s grace and mercy too.
The title of this post is due to something the Lord whispered to me this morning as I was praying and asking Him to bring healing and peace to our family. I am sharing this because I know there are other people out there that need to hear this. The Lord said to me:
“I forgive you, I am with you, and I love you. Keep trusting. Keep believing. Don’t give up.”
All I could do was say thank you through tears. That is how the Lord speaks to us as He comforts us in the Holy Spirit! It’s like a beautiful thought that just flows through your mind. Let that be a blessing to you today. No matter what you are going through keep trusting, keep believing, and don’t give up! Jesus forgives you, Jesus is with you, and Jesus loves you!
To my wife: I love you with all my heart and I love the kids with all my heart. I have shared my heart in front of all these people because I love you and the kids with all my heart. Please forgive me for not being the man of God, father, and husband I should be at times. I love you!
Thank you all for your prayers. May His will be done in all things!
Grace and peace to you all!
This post is so inspiring. The words He spoke to you really touched my heart – He cares so much and will always uplift us even when we get discouraged. He is truly our great comforter and a wonder! 😊
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Amen Laura! It really is amazing how He speaks to us and lifts us up! God bless you!
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Thank you. Yes, it’s truly amazing.
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Life is definitely not easy. Thanks for sharing your trials Ryan and God Bless you and your family.
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Thank you sir! God bless!
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Amen, Ryan. Praying for you.
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Thank you sir! God bless!
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Reading this brings tears Ryan. Living with chronic illness is so challenging on so many levels. Our families go through the fire with us because they ARE our life too. I have failed, flipped out, said things in depair out of grief. Grief for the life I once lived, grief for the person who is gone, grief for my kids, grief for my husband, grief over friends gone, grief over the fact that I don’t trust like I should….but He has never once forsaken or forgotten me. Ever. He is my only HOPE. Jesus walks with us and is our constant source of peace as we fight every day by His grace and strength. I’m so sorry for the tough night. I’m praying for you and your precious family Ryan.
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Thank you so much Vivian! I appreciate your understanding and grace! God bless you!
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Thank you so much Vivian! I really appreciate your grace and understanding. God bless you and your family sister!
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I love when the Lord drops an encouraging word into our hearts. Thank you for sharing!
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Amen Cecilia! God bless!
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My wife deals with chronic Rheumatoid arthritis. Not once have I seen her take it out on anyone, or blame anyone, or upset with God because of it…
Me on the other hand…
I have battered the anxiety and depression that led to me being a complete **s and very mean. Impatient and rude towards others. I learned–through my wife (and Holy Spirit, of course) that patience is a must. It is what the love, as well as the fruit of His nature is. May we both remember to taste our words and check our ourselves before speaking. Practice– and think– on HIS things! 🙏 Blessings, brother!
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Thanks brother! God bless!
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We all do it, but I hate messing up. I take comfort that as I make all the reparations that I can, God will help others feel my sorrowful heart and how much I love them. Blessings to you and your family!
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Amen, thank you! God bless!
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Peace to you and your family, brother.
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Thank you Kathy! God bless you!
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BUT GOD sent JESUS…
“For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.”
Romans 7:22-25
Thank you for sharing Ryan . God bless you .
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Amen! Thank you for the Scripture! God bless!
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“Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.” Receiving those whispered words from the Lord as you prayed, Ryan…how heartfelt that must have been. You and your family are in my prayers, Ryan. You have such a loving family, and I love you all so much.
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Thanks Mom! Love you!🌺
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I have done all those things and more. Our God is awesome and will show forgiveness thru our family. He will touch their hearts also.:)
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Thank you, I appreciate that! God bless!🌺
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Wow. Touching. Still praying you’ll be completely healed and made very bit whole and well.
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Thank you brother, amen to that! God bless!
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Same to you!
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Thus is so inspiring. I love how honest you are and how you put everything out there. Its very hard to do that. Prayers for you my friend! 🙏
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Thanks Michelle, I appreciate that! God bless!🌺
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Peace and strength my brother! Along the journey we all stumble, on the path we get discouraged. But Jesus said, follow and He will lead… your heart! Still in my prayers my friend, God bless!
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Amen, thank you sir! God bless!
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Ryan, I appreciate your honesty. We are all broken sinners in need of a Savior, day by day by day. I’m lifting you in prayer right now. May the Lord Jesus refresh, renew and restore your heart, dear brother.
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Amen, thank you Melissa! God bless!
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We all have those moments. It’s ok.
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Thank you Debra! God bless you!
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Ryan, none of us are perfect. Just because we write a blog and we write about God and we try to encourage and teach people, doesn’t mean any of us have it all together. It’s amazing that God uses any of us as flawed as we all are. The important thing is that we know when we’ve done wrong and we repent. I can tell you I definitely don’t have it anywhere near all together. I wish I could say after so many years of being a Christian that I’m a better person, but I still fall, I still fail, and I still sin. In fact, I was just thinking today about what a selfish, self-centered person I can be and wishing that God would just come or take me home because I’m so tired of myself. I respect you for sharing these things with us and I will be praying for you and your family. God bless you, brother.
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Thanks Dee, amen! God bless!
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We will continue to pray for you Ryan. You are honest and you admit your faults and this is a big step towards your healing. David was a man after Gods’s heart because of His repentive heart – a heart that recognize its faults and seek forgivness. Consider yourself a man of God and continue allow Him to lead you.
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Thank you, I appreciate that Beverley! God bless!
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It’s the inner of me too, especially in my daily struggle for normal life. Sometimes I know I expected too much, but I amglad we are made perfect in in Jesus
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Amen brother Thuam! God bless you and your family!
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Ryan, each of us experience the challenges of life, and sometimes we have difficulty living up to the expectations. By loving God first and then others (such as wife and children), we have our priorities in the proper order. With God’s Grace, the sun will always rise the next morning. Take care of yourself!
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Thank you sir, I appreciate that! God bless!
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