Throughout the years of my suffering Celiac there have been many times where I felt as though the Lord was done with me. I felt as though He had set me aside and my life was no more. You know what though? Every time I felt like that, God made sure to let me know He was right there with me.
He did this by using a verse to get my attention. I would be having a day where everything seemed dark and I felt like God was no longer paying attention to me, so I would go to the Word. He is the vine and we are the branches, remember to remain in Him.
The Lord started using this verse in the deep years of my suffering. I was in the throws of it and I was in burning pain and anguish every day. On one of those days about 3 or 4 years into it, I was suffering badly, but I had not talked to the Lord about it. I felt like the Lord was going to let me die and He was disregarding me. I was keeping all of these thoughts inside my mind and heart that day and I was in turmoil. I walked into the kitchen, grabbed my Bible, and opened it. I wasn’t looking for a particular passage. I just grabbed it and opened it. As I was suffering in my anguish and despair feeling like God had abandoned me to die in my pain, I looked at my Bible and this is the verse my eyes landed on:
“Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, “My way is hidden from the Lord; my cause is disregarded by my God?”
Upon reading that verse I froze! I had read it before, but never like that! It was like God had walked right into my house to let me know I am not hidden from Him and He is still with me! I had not even said a word to Him about how I was feeling, but the Lord knows our thoughts and hearts and He lifted me up! That is how the Lord speaks to us through His Word! Be in it every day folks!
He filled my heart with hope and encouragement and I felt like I was soaring above my pain! It was like the disease had no hold on me! My body was hurting, but my Spirit was soaring!
I continued to read the remaining verses to the end of the chapter, and it all started to become very clear as the Lord spoke a familiar and famous set of verses into my heart:
“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
Tears of joy were streaming down my face and I praised God for His love and comfort! I soar like an eagle above my troubles because of His power inside of me! I feel just like that eagle strong and bold as he flies over the valley of the shadow of death. This disease has no hold on me and I am not disregarded by my God!
You are not disregarded either! He sees you! He knows you! There is real hope in Jesus! Come to Him today and get your wings! He will lift you up, and you will soar high above every dark cloud of trouble in this world!
Grace and peace to you all!